time for more im port ant what they’re looking for but also doesn’t have a Title IX” against them. Among pro-hookup-ers, there’s this conception that this new era of sexual freedom has ush ered in one of sexual equality as well. And that’s true to some extent—it is more accepted now to engage in casual hookups, and if anything, it has created more space for women to talk about their sexualities, at least with other women. However, the idea that hookup culture has waved its sexy little wand and magically removed all the stigma around “overly sexual” women is largely untrue. Take the experience of Jasmine. An enthusiastic participant of hookup culture over the past year and a half, Jasmine keeps a log of every person she’s hooked up with—mostly men—and how they performed (which includes “bad, good, terrible, awful,” and, one time, “treacherous”). Jasmine is not treated as a liberated woman by her Haverford peers, however; quite the opposite. “I feel as though the responses to wom en who participate in hookup culture are very deliberating and very negative,” she says. This doesn’t mean hookup culture can’t still feel liberating, and many women know others who staunchly defend it even if they them selves are on the fence, but it’s also often hard to tell where the endorsement of hookup culture comes from. “Am I actually even able to do this for myself or am I telling myself that so that it feels more okay?” Amy asks herself. A state away, Jasmine is struggling with the same thing. “I have a lot of my ego attached to this idea of sex positivity because I feel like I’ve been slut shamed a fair amount, so it would be nice to feel em powered and not victimized,” she explained. “At the same time, it can be very saddening.” “Am I actually even able to do this for myself or am I telling myself that so that it feels more okay? For so many women like Amy, Jasmine, and Iris, it can be difficult to distinguish feeling empowered from feeling objec tified; feeling sexy from feeling sexualized. Hookups can feel shitty and self-actualizing at the same time. It’s hard to recon cile this dissonance for many women—feeling unhappy or ashamed of something they’re supposed to feel empowered by, or, on the other hand, feeling proud and excited by something they’re told to feel shame about. The more interviews I do, the more obvious it becomes that looking to “solve” whether hookup culture is empowering or not is absolutely doomed. No person, or culture, feels just one way about something that intimate. As Amy jokes on the the phone to me, “people have sex for three reasons: power, connection or fun.” The hard part, then, was figuring out which of these categories hookup culture belongs to. My theory? All three. *All names have been changed for anonymity 4
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